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behind that cool facade
hides a messed up soul
walk with me


an ordinary person living and struggling in this ordinary yet tormenting world.

shouts




Monday, March 23, 2009


wanted to blog. but the post was ruined. wait til next time i got mood blog.

but it had been clubbin,drinking,clubbing.

Saturday, March 14, 2009


my days had been fun and happy.

it was dbl o last thurs with goldie and we met gary and gabriel and ivan there. dbl o was raid. lols. and there was this trans whu strip herself when shes quarrellin with another woman. but they were talkin in malay so i dint understand luh of cause. haha. then we just slacked by the river and breakfast and home. haha. supposedly to rest right? in the end? powerhouse the next day! hahaha.

i met up with gary for dinner. then gabriel needed him for wingman. so we joined. then they decided to head to club. so i called goldie along. haha. quite fun. nice. as usual, home in the morning. again, supposed to rest right? CLUB 2 DAYS ALREADY LEH~ but?

gary took me out the next day. hahaha. met him at cityhall. and he took me to vivo. hes mad. he wanted to go to sentosa for italian food. but he dint make reservations so we had it at vivo instead. nice food. nice service. nice ambience. its only the other guests talkin loudly that ruins it. haha~ then we went for ben and jerry. then slacked at the roof. then we passed by GV. so he said its a great idea to watch a show. LOLS. so we caught marley and me at gold class. yes. the pics at the previous post. and we have 2 and half hrs to spare. so? mount faber! haha. we chatted alot. as usual, we can go on and on and on like nv ending. like we have all the time in the world! I LOVE! haha~ he booked a cab for us to go back to vivo. gold class is soooo nice~~ had jumbo hotdogs with wedges and sparkling drink. slacked and prata for breakfast! home~~

okok. time to rest le la hor? yea. headed to his house after dinner to study. why cant study at home? cause with my com here i cant study! haha. crashed over and studied. movies. food. sleep. he sent me to school the next morning. =D

met him again after exam cause im having cramps. so he took me to vivo. wanting to go to the doc. but i dont want. haha! he had lunch. walked around. send me home. crash over again to study for marketing. =p marketing paper was so easy~~

ok. finally time to rest. haha. stayed home for the night. but went to his house early morning to cook breakfast for him~ hahaha. AMERICAN BREAKFAST SIOL~~ =p and his mum cooked dinner for us! we went grocery shopping together~ crabs,prawns~~ with him, theres always good food. why? cause hes a super picky mouth! =p

at night? POWERHOUSE with gabriel and 4 other girls. omgomgomg. the girls suck. as in, dancing, dressing, attitude. LOL. the girls went off themselves and we went for breakfast and chill at bukit timah. home sweet home. and then? bathe and collapse flat~

woke up thurs afternoon around late noon. 4pm? then his sis says we are going out for dinner. see, good food again. had dian xiao er. then gary and i went off to meet gab again. BOTAK JONES. and i ate so much la. i ate much more than gary. LOL. and hes going NS the next day,so i stayed over to pei him.

and today? yes yes today. early morning wake up send him to expo with his family. finally departed after spending time together for so many days. now hes SNORING AWAY IN DREAMLAND in the camp. >.<

no pics cause we forgot to take. haha~

Sunday, March 08, 2009


070309.



060309. powerhouse.goldie,me,gabriel,gary.




Monday, March 02, 2009


worst encounter. or not?

f damn it. woke up in the mornin according to planned. woke baby up. then proceeded to prepare for school. the usual stuffs. brushin teeth washing face makin up. yea. then i realized my right eyelid is abit swollen. but i have to go for my hks test today. so i decided to go ahead with the make up and go to school. left home as planned. 730am. boarded the train and its not very squeezy thanks heaven. normally its so squeezy la. ok. then comes the worst encounter in my life about my body.

i switched train. switched to the green line.everything was fine still. until buona vista station. 2 more stops and i gotta alight. when i blacked-out. yes blackout. everything went black in front of my eyes. but i didnt faint. near faintin but didnt. i was prayin so hard to let me regain my sight so i can alight at clementi then i can find a place to rest. but didnt. til the train was going to JE. then i slowly gained back my sight. then i alighted at JE. sat down at the seats on the platform. havin cold sweat all over. got tissue from an auntie. rested. msged francis. called my mum. she ask me go get something to eat while waitin for my dad to pick me up. and so i did. then my head started to hurt like f. no. WORSE THAN GETTIN FUCKED by a huge penis. fcuk damn it. couldnt endure man. and i was so out of breath that i was talkin so softly that i bet if ANY of my frens is there,they will go 'omg.finally you are talkin softly'. WTH. so got no choice to take cab back myself. AND I GOT KAN CAI TOU. FCUK. dont know which route the uncle took. i was too seh to notice already. it amounts to a total of $15.65. FCUK DAMN IT. lol. if i rush for school when im late at around 7+,15 bucks i can understand la. extra charges and all. fcuk. 9+am? zzz.

waited for my dad downstairs. too weak to move. every step i take i feel like i can throw up anytime. so scared that i dont dare to walk a step until he came. when i saw him i was like 'omg my saviour is finally here' then i collapse onto the chair. he picked me up and walked to the lift. nearly vomitted halfway. for the first time i hated the long walkway to my unit. damn. for the first time i have this complaint in my mind 'why do my house have to be in the middle instead of being the first unit?' haha. and guess what? when i entered the house. the first place i went to is the toilet. sat beside the toilet bowl and vomitted. nice. all my sandwich and milo is gone. LOLS. after cleaning up,collapsed on my bed. lay comfortably and drift off to sleep and rest.

woke up at around 11+ cause baby smsed me. i dint have the energy to msg him when i blackout so he was worried. yea. then i went back to sleep and to the doc at 2. another fkin thing. its not DR TEO. sigh. only DR TEO knows my condition la. idiot.

the doc say its cause i got not enough blood. and i stood too long thus the blood was collected at the lower part of my body and caused the lack of pressure and blood in my upper body. thats why i blackout and felt as if my blood is drainin off from my face and head and hand. NICE. =.=

i super scared when i cant see anything de lor. my eyes is super goddamn important to me. so important that i will NEVER EVER allow myself to wear specs. i wont let my eyesight have any problems. i treasure my eyes so much that i told myself that im NEVER EVER gonna allow my children to wear specs too. is like,perfect eyesight is a gift. so why destroy it? when your are born,unless you are born short sighted or whatever la. if not why go and destroy your eyesight right? spend mayb like 100 or 200+ on specs and lenses. WTH. might as well take good care of your eyes right? LOLS. but i acted calm enough just now. PHEW~


yea. worst encounter or not? actually no la. its stil ok. just that its the first time. ohya. doc said if theres a second time,tests have to be run. sian. waste money. =\