again im posting after so long.. this is gonna be soooo low profile blog. LOL. almost noone knows i have a blog. to me its a secret diary.

i miss ying yong..the feeling he gave me on sunday was so perfect..once we see each other,we smiled.and when i pinch him,he took my hand so tightly.like afraid i'd pull away.when we go down the stairs or cross the road,he'll hold onto me.when we reached mbs,he put his hand on my waist whenever hes beside me.when we both ly on the sofa bed and drink,he hugged me.when he went to talk to mandy for a few mins,when he came back,the first thing he said was "sorry".though all the suanings was usual and non stop,but thats how we had always been.suaning each other.when we finished drinking and both doze off,he hugged me still.and when he ask me to move up onto the bed and sleep so im more comfortable,i dont want.then he say he'll be with me.and so we moved.his hand never ever left me.hugged me in his arms and go to sleep.how i miss that feeling...its been 1 yr plus since we slept like that. when he sent me home,he gave me a peck on my forehead.. and,he had NEVER been like this towards me before even when we were tgt in the past..mygod..he totally catches my heart... but i cant let him win this battle.because hes married already.i cant allow myself to submit to this feeling.i need to let him go..... sigh..but hes the one on my mind since he left me that afternoon..